Post by sunechirei on Oct 5, 2011 0:08:19 GMT -5
So, I've talked about my fanfic, Is there an Elephant in the Room quite a bit on this site, and I feel weird for bringing it up again, but I feel like I have to share this;
This story changed my life.
I don't know why, I don't know how, but when I go back and think about it, it really did. Maybe it's because I was able to complete such a long story, in such a short amount of time, have fun with it, and love every minute of it. I managed to achieve a goal that my step-mom had pounded into my head that I would never be able to do. I broke through these chains that have been surrounding my heart for the longest time.
But it's not only that; it's the topics I talk about in that story. Figuring out who you really are, dealing with abuse, abandonment, confusion, love, hatred, family, friends, trust, and most of all, fear. I don't know why, and I didn't write the story to deal with these things. In fact, it started out as a comedy. But the characters all developed into something they weren't when I started, and before I knew it, I had written a popular, deep story that I was just told helped someone attain emotional gratification. I honestly don't know what to think of this.
The feeling I have when I read that review was nothing but pure happiness. I'd helped someone. I'd done something well with this crappily written, messed up story. I didn't think that would ever happen. But when I thought about it, it brought something out in me that I'd never thought of before; the backgrounds of all the characters have something to do with me and my life. (Minus the main character who's POV the story is told from) Maybe it helped me through all the stuff that I had to deal with as a child. Maybe it was my subconscious way of figuring out that life does in fact move on.
I started this story as a "just for the heck of it," fanfic about a pairing I really like. But now, over a year since I started it, and a few weeks since I posted the last chapter on ff.net, it's become more than that to me.
It was the first story I really finished.
It's proof of how much I thought about my pain during the past year.
It's a story that brought me an a few of my friends closer together.
And for some reason that gives me hope to continue writing. It makes me feel that I can do something to help change the world, even if it's just the world of one person. Some people do that through money, or by joining the police, or things along those lines. For me, it's by writing.
I want every writer; not just on this site, not just on our sister sites, not just on ff.net, or fp.com, or wherever else you guys have gone, but EVERY SINGLE WRITER who walks in this planet to have an experience like that.
I know- this is a long ramble, and it was probably pointless, but I felt like posting it. I felt like sharing with this site what writing can do to a person. For those of you who are feeling like giving up; don't. You're here for a reason. You love to write. Something about writing attracted you in the first place.
Just because right now you have no proof that something you've written has changed the world for someone, doesn't mean it's not true. Don't forget that.
~Sunechirei
This story changed my life.
I don't know why, I don't know how, but when I go back and think about it, it really did. Maybe it's because I was able to complete such a long story, in such a short amount of time, have fun with it, and love every minute of it. I managed to achieve a goal that my step-mom had pounded into my head that I would never be able to do. I broke through these chains that have been surrounding my heart for the longest time.
But it's not only that; it's the topics I talk about in that story. Figuring out who you really are, dealing with abuse, abandonment, confusion, love, hatred, family, friends, trust, and most of all, fear. I don't know why, and I didn't write the story to deal with these things. In fact, it started out as a comedy. But the characters all developed into something they weren't when I started, and before I knew it, I had written a popular, deep story that I was just told helped someone attain emotional gratification. I honestly don't know what to think of this.
The feeling I have when I read that review was nothing but pure happiness. I'd helped someone. I'd done something well with this crappily written, messed up story. I didn't think that would ever happen. But when I thought about it, it brought something out in me that I'd never thought of before; the backgrounds of all the characters have something to do with me and my life. (Minus the main character who's POV the story is told from) Maybe it helped me through all the stuff that I had to deal with as a child. Maybe it was my subconscious way of figuring out that life does in fact move on.
I started this story as a "just for the heck of it," fanfic about a pairing I really like. But now, over a year since I started it, and a few weeks since I posted the last chapter on ff.net, it's become more than that to me.
It was the first story I really finished.
It's proof of how much I thought about my pain during the past year.
It's a story that brought me an a few of my friends closer together.
And for some reason that gives me hope to continue writing. It makes me feel that I can do something to help change the world, even if it's just the world of one person. Some people do that through money, or by joining the police, or things along those lines. For me, it's by writing.
I want every writer; not just on this site, not just on our sister sites, not just on ff.net, or fp.com, or wherever else you guys have gone, but EVERY SINGLE WRITER who walks in this planet to have an experience like that.
I know- this is a long ramble, and it was probably pointless, but I felt like posting it. I felt like sharing with this site what writing can do to a person. For those of you who are feeling like giving up; don't. You're here for a reason. You love to write. Something about writing attracted you in the first place.
Just because right now you have no proof that something you've written has changed the world for someone, doesn't mean it's not true. Don't forget that.
~Sunechirei